Thursday, September 24, 2009

Thursday Thoughts

"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

~ Romans 8: 38-39


I love this verse. When I read it, I feel tremendous peace. I am reminded of what I believe is most important: that God loves me, and that will never change. His love for me is unshakable.

A little raw honesty here~ I have been feeling like a failure lately. No monumental reason really. Just a lot of little things adding up until I truly feel like I need a tee-shirt that says, "I suck." I asked my friend if she needed anything from Costco when I went, and somehow left without her list. (I still can't find it.) I didn't have my cell phone with me, so I couldn't call her. I got the wrong book for my son on the Scholastic Book Club order form. I missed the boat entirely, and still haven't called my best friend back since she called last week. (Hi, Amy!) And worst of all, haven't read my Bible in days...

I struggle to keep up with my family, but feel tremendous guilt that, in the process, I seem to fail in the daughter, friend, and sister categories. I am working so hard to be a good wife and mother, but for every thing I do right, there are 100 things I should also be doing. Can you say "F for failure"? That essentially has been my montage all week. Not a very good thing to be saying to oneself, eh?

And so I thank God. For a friend who loves me even though I forget her grocery list. For a son who loves me despite the fact that sometimes I get mixed up. For children and a husband who really don't expect me to be perfect, just want me to be there. And to God I say thanks for reminding me that nothing could change His love for me! You just can't beat that!

Maybe instead of saying "F for failure" I should say "L for loved"...


9 comments:

Odette said...

Jenni, nothing in this world is perfect! i believe god created us this way so we have room to learn. i am sure your friend knows this, and so does your family. so don't be harsh on yourself. to them and to us, you are perfect just the way you are...

Amy S. said...

Jenni, you are too hard on yourself (as usual)! :)
We all feel like we're letting people down during different times in our lives. I know I certainly do! You are wonderful just the way you are, and you are dearly loved!

Amy said...

don't be hard on yourself! you are loved!
I think you are a wonderful person...wish you lived closer lol!

Amy xx :)

Southern Belle said...

Well all I can say is its a good thing I will see you soon so I can give you a hug! No one is perfect...if it makes you feel better I don't even write a shopping list so half the time I forget most everything I need.

~Christine = )

Jeni said...

Hey I like you just the way you are. And believe me I feel the same some days.

Tracey said...

I have a brain like a sieve! We all love ya! XXX

Liz said...

Oh, Jenni, no one is perfect! We all have days/weeks like that. I hope you have a better week coming up!

((HUGS))

jen said...

I would loose my head if it weren't attached!! Mothers have so many things to remember all of the time!!! Don't be so hard on yourself. I can sense by just the very little bit that I have learned about you, that you are a wonderful person!! Keep your head up and I have a feeling that this week will be much better for you!!

Jen

Montee said...

We've all been there. Hugs.